'Ello

What's new since I blogged last?

1.) Finished up two more classes :) and have started two more - Old Testament and Christian Ethics in the U.S. (four more classes to go, and I will finally be done).

2.) Turned 26 (I am super old now), and I celebrated the day by going to work, which is how I know that I'm old.

3.) I had an awesome summer...I mowed the yard a lot, which was therapeutic in so many ways! I read books that were on my "books I must read before I die" list. I went to Philadelphia for the first time and saw all the typical touristy places. I went to several weddings, worked a lot, spent time with my youth groupians, and soaked up the rays in the back yard pool. I also got to catch up with friends, family, and on my sleep :)



4.) I began to attempt house-sitting professionally as a side gig so I can buy a nice car and travel more without having to sell a kidney. I have had mixed results, but I'm not giving up cause I would really like to keep my kidney! :)

5.) I watched a lot re-runs of The Office because it is the best show on television.

6.) I finally updated my blog with a lovely new background, and now you can officially follow my blog. Notice that no one is following it :) That's okay. I still love you.

7.) Oh yeah, I also became an aunt...and that is pretty much the best thing that has ever happened to me aside from Jesus.

Random Thoughts from the Queen of Awkwardness

So, since everytime I blog I spend most of it apologizing and subsequently filling people in on my life from the last time I blogged, I am gong to refrain from doing that tonight. I just need a place to hash out my thoughts...I'm not even sure where to begin because there is so much swimming around in my head.

The last week or so, I've been sad, lonely, and just unlike my normal positive self. I thought maybe it was just because work and school had been so busy, but then when my business ceased, I realized it was just me. See, I've just been feeling stuck lately. Not that good things aren't happening...that's just it, I feel like God is doing awesome things right now. Youth group has been amazing. We are seeing huge growth, both in numbers in what God is showing to our awesome kids! God has also been speaking to me personally...however, I still feel like I just need something new. I've been here in this same place for what seems like forever, and I keep telling myself that I need to be content, but I'm just so frustrated. I know that God has me here for this season of my life, but I just feel like I need a new adventure.

I hate to tell people this issue because naturally they think that all of my problems could be solved if I would only get married...ugh! At least, that's what most of the people in my life say.

And that brings me to my next issue, seriously people, I don't want to be set up with the really nice single guy that you know. Yeah, I know you think that there is nothing wrong with a 30 year old guy that lives in his parent's basement, but there probably is something wrong with him. But, I digress. The thing is, a long time ago, I made a promise to God that I wouldn't date just to date. I don't think I need to put my profile on EHarmony, or Match.com., and I certainly don't need a blind date to find the guy God has for me. I trust that if God wants me to get married, then He'll work it out. I trust Him. I've tried things my way before, and I know that doing things God's way is so much better. Enough said.

P.S. If you are single and think there is something wrong with you, it's okay. Being single is a good thing! I promise!

So, all of that to say, I just want a new adventure. So today, Pastor Burt felt like God had given him this message about breakthrough. I sensed the Holy Spirit simply say, "Listen." There was a lot of awesome stuff packed in the message which came from Judges 6, dealing with Gideon. The one point that really spoke to me was that sometimes God brings us to a new season, a season of breakthrough, and we don't even recognize it, just like Gideon couldn't see that the Angel of the Lord was his breakthrough moment and instead of recognizing it, he argued with the Angel. Conviction! I know I need to be content where God has me, in this season, for however long that takes...

Lord, I don't want to argue with you...take me where you want to take me. Help me to sacrifice where I need to sacrifice, and to choose You and Your ways in every situation that I encounter because Your ways are so much better and higher than my own. Thank you for Your ability to break me through—You can break me through loneliness, sadness, despondency, and lethargy because You love me. Thank you for that!

So, what has God been speaking to you these days? I'd love to hear from you.